sighs
Nampaknya diri aku semakin sebati dengan perkataan " Forever Alone". Aku unfriend ramai orang, aku block sebahagian daripada mereka serta yang paling hebat antaranya ialah aku macam dah kurang siuman asyik deactivate, reactivate facebook aku & vice versa. Twitter pun rasa macam nak deactivate je, tapi tak sampai hati lagi. Hanya blog saja yang memahami diriku since aku takda pembaca setia pun. Nampaknya perasaan kena bash ni makin lama makin parah, berdarah, bernanah. Di samping perasaan itu, suicidal thoughts slightly came through my mind. Terfikir je, tak buat pun ok. Huh, apakah ini adalah zaman kejatuhan Nur Aifa dalam alam maya? Ataupun adakah ini sebenarnya zaman kebangkitan Nur Aifa dalam alam realiti?
Memang dah lama simpan niat nak jauhkan benda-benda ni daripada hidup aku, cuz nak fokus dekat SPM je. I'm finally fully aware that i'm fall far away behind my studies, asyik sibuk melayan benda-benda ni je. For god sake SPM dah dekat sangat ouh. 187 DAYS LEFT WEYH! Dah ah masa form 4 dulu aku honey moon habis, asyik tidur dalam kelas, lepas tu sepatah haram aku tak ingat dah apa cikgu ajar dulu. Bila nak refresh balik, memang blur 24 jam je aku ni. Ya kawan-kawan, inilah salah seorang pelajar harapan SMKS4KD yang disangkakan penuh ilmu di dada, yang dipandang tinggi ramai pfftt. :/ Padahal tak pun. Aku sedar aku pun macam dah makin hilang semangat nak belajar, gara-gara kes bashing-membashing ni.
Oleh itu para pembaca sekalian, aku memohon doa anda supaya aku tidak putus asa plus sempat catch up semuanya. Aku tak nak masa depan aku hancur. Aku tak nak keputusan SPM aku nampak huduh. Yang paling penting, aku tak nak ummi abah kecewa dengan aku. Aku nak diorang bangga dengan aku. I want to stand tall (walaupun aku memang pendek). Tak nak dah lack of confidence ni, malu. Kbai.
*gambar blogger > forever alone credits to
Awie. :P
Labels: Abah, exam, life, school, spm, Ummi
Ups and Downs
Assalamua'laikum and annyeonghaseyo, minna-san.It's been so long I didn't update my blog. It's so messy in here. Some of the songs are messed up and I found out that I can't use Shoutmix for free anymore. Well, you know why. Abah cut the internet line on the reason he said that he wanted me to focus on my studies for SPM. So yeah, I don't really have a chance to blogging much since then. I don't hate my father for that, in fact i'm thankful that he did that. Like he said, I actually can focus in class and do my homeworks lol, especially after I lost my phone too. No more blogging, no more facebook, no more texting but unfortunately, no more Kpop. T_T
But you know what? Good news for meh! My dad actually brought home Unifi today and set it up at home. Hoyeahh! Unifi's line is so damn fast yo. I can browse whatever I want, whenever I want, in a blink of an eye. I managed to downloaded 1-10 episodes of SUFBB in half an hour. Actually, i'm pretty surprised when he set up internet line back because I still remember the old days when he was got mad at me because I overused the internet back then. Maybe Abah misses the internet, who knows. Or maybe i'm just lucky, I guess. keke
However, when good news came, the bad news always come along. So what's the bad news? Hurm, my relationship with this friend of mine is currently not so good. This other friend of mine and I made a little mistake to her but we tried our best apologized to her and persuaded her not to get into tears so much but she pushed me away, mentally and physically as if i'm just a friend-for-nothing to her or something. Then she told about this to her friends and make us look like jerks. Fyi, I actually silently cried over that situation. I can't believe she actually backstabbed us. Dammit, she was overreacting and obviously a drama queen. Seriously, I don't get her at all and i'm so done with her. You want to continue sulking, go ahead. I won't harm you for that and absolutely won't coax a crybaby like you anymore. I'd rather off alone myself than treating a princess friend like you.
So yeah, it's a tradition when we had ups and downs. I told Ummi that I had a complication at school but I didn't tell her about the fight. She advised me that life is like a wheel, sometimes you're on the top, sometimes you're down. Then she told me not to not let my guard down when I face such problems. She even told me that there are various kinds of people outside so I have to decide carefully when making friends. Lastly she said that don't forget to ask for Allah's guide if i'm deadlock. I thought about Ummi's advice a lot and it surely helped me a lot. I don't want to ruin this friendship. My friends are very precious to me but my patience has its limit. To me, doing so is too much so I made up my mind to remain silent and see what's next. I won't bash her. Gosh, i'm tired of dramas. All I want for now is to break-free from problems and SPM.
-Bini Kim Myungsoo ❤
Labels: Abah, friends, internet, luahan hati, school, Ummi
Easy come easy go
When we talk about life, sometimes we experience glory sometimes we experience failure. But what i'm facing right now is like a failure in glory. I mean I got good class, good friends and good environment but the more I think about it, the pressure is on rapidly. It's like I have lots of responsible to handle. I try my best to strike the highest goal which is to be happy as a good muslimah besides as a student but I never reach it till now. I discussed with ummi about this and she said "no matter what kind of conjectures we're facing, take a wudhu' and leave the rest to Allah." I thought about it deeply and I think ummi just solve my problem. So to muslim around the world, let's muhasabah, empty our mind from stress and pressure, pray and zikrullah. It's not to late to change. Let's remind ourselves to increase our Iman level because we never know when will Qiamat start. I wish the world is peaceful by the side of Islam. Assalamua'laikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
-Aifa / Yui ♥
Labels: Islam, life, Ummi
Fly like a G6
Yesterday Abah got a meeting but Adam (my lil bro) wants to come along . So Abah decided to bring me and Adam along. Me and Adam visited Ummi while Abah went to meeting for awhile. Then to prevent Adam from bothering Ummi with her works, Abah brought us to a field specified for kites playing. It was really windy there that you don't even need a fan. Pictures;
-Aifa/Yui ♥
Labels: Abah, Adam, life, Ummi
Au revoir
Assalamua'laikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. (saja buang tebiat tulis penuh :PP)
Semalam Tsuki balik rumah , Wan Teh & anak-anak dye pun ikut. I swear I really miss that kiddo. It's been months we don't meet. Ni dia balik pun sebab nak jumpa Ummi Abah for the last time sebelum dorang terbang ke Mekah untuk menunaikan haji nanti. Tapi sekejap je dye kat sini , pukul 2 petang tadi baru je balik ke Kelantan sebab exam dye tak habis lagi. Maklumlah, dye ada 21 subjek (sila terkejut).
Belakang : Azza Mawaddah; anak sulung Wan Teh.
Depan : Yui, Adam gedik, Tsuki. :')
My siblings are united again ! :D
Sila ignore tudung senget tersebut, sekian terima kasih :-)
Sempat jugak tadi dye tangkap gambar Ummi Abah sebelum naik bas tadi aww. :') Gambar-gambar kat atas ni pun Yui sempat tangkap betul-betul sebelum dye pergi semata-mata nak post psl benda alah ni blog. x)
14 November ni dye datang balik , holiday terus dengan Yui. Weeee ~ ! :D
Btw, kepada sesape yang baca post ni , tolong doakan untuk keselamatan parents & nenek Yui kat Mekah nanti. Sama-sama kita doakan agar dorang dapat Haji Mabrur. Amin. :)
-YuiWookie ♥
Labels: Abah, family, holiday, home, life, tsuki, Ummi
Finally! =)
Assalamua'laikum. Yaw , Yui in the house. ;)
Harini Yui nak story sikit pasal a good news about my parents.
Just now I opened my facebok acc. As usual, I'll scroll down the page and see my friends' updates. I wanna relieve the stress so yeah, spending wasting my time with my friends on the line is the best way. x) Back to the point, the moment I checked the updates I saw my appa's status;
Klik utk tumbesaran tulang.
Yeah, people. My parents are going to be a Haji & Hajjah soon! :D Alhamdulillah, Allah just granted their prayers. ^_^ Thank you Allah. Words can't describe my appreciation. :)
According to the status, Abah said he'll come with Mak Tok to tanah suci. Alhamdulillah Mak Tok will come along because she's not healthy enough rite now. In other words, she is suffering kidney disease. :( It's a good thing she can come. (:
Anyways, can you see my comment down there? Omma just replied and said I'm going to stay with Opah at Perlis during the Haj with a possibility that Miera (my cousin) won't be there. NOOOOO! Dahlah takde internet, pastu mugkin Miera takde. Goshh, gotta prepare for boredom soon then. Wish my whole family (mom's side) going to be there or I am soo dead meat 'cause I know Opah will ask me to do looots of works. Yess, my mom is like a replica of Opah 'cause THEY ARE SOOO ALOIKE; 24 hours non-stop babling & 24 hours non-stop working. ;) Lol, I realise I just talk too much about Opah. xD
Ok then, till we 'meet' again. Buibui. :)
-WookYui ♥
Labels: Abah, family, holiday, life, Ummi
Tanjoubi omedeto, okaasan. ♥
Saengil chukha hamnida, umma! Long live and hope Allah bless you and our family. =)
Hope you're happy with the gift sincerely from your daughters and the the lil prince. :]
And yeah, I can see you're happy with the roses from abah. ^^
*Lol, ayahku romantik. x]
xoxo,
NAMR.
Labels: Abah, Adam, family, Ummi
Ch Ch Ch Change
Haishh, the plan of to go to Sungai Kelah is off. But thank goodness abah took us to Gold Coast,
Australia Sepang. Hahah, you think what I'm thinking? Tau takpe, diorang mcm takde nama lain jehh. x] Nasib baiklahh tempat tu cantik & tengah on the way buat resort. ;]
Well, when we arrived there, I saw nothing but a non-water beach. Air dia bukan main jauh lagi dari tempat kitorang berkelah, sampai motor pun boleh suka-suki lalu-lalang kat pantai tuh. xD Seriously, it was like an ocean of sands. Lebih tepat lagi, LUMPUR. =,=
Disebabkan abah dah penat dari rumah sampai ke sana non-stop driving, kitorang pun tidur dulu kat situ. Well, Yui tak exactly tido senaye. Yui pergi cari ketam kat pantai jaaaauuhh sana. Ya Allah, selipar Yui habis kena lumpur pasir sampai terjerit-jerit Yui mintak Tsuki keluarkan kaki Yui dari lumpur tuh. xDD Nasib baik lumpur pasir pantai~ Kalau lumpur kandang kerbau, habis leee eden. x] aNYWAYS, suprisingly I got 3 lil crabs in a short period & bawak dia tempat kitorang berkelah. Kat sana, kitorang buat experiment mcm mana ketam korek lubang kat pasir. =) And yeah, it was a big success. Mula-mula dia jalan-jalan senget xD and cari tempat yg sesuai, then dia mula menggali. Memang comel~♥
Okey, habis cite pasal ketam. Then the best moment Yui kat sana is baca komik (ada 2 & dua-dua belum baca) sambil baring. Memang aman dan damai. Cuma lukisan komik & lukisan realiti. (pantai laa tuh) Memang khusyuk gila Yui baca komik masa tuh. (Yui mmg mcm tu kalau time membaca) Betul-betul lepas habis baca, Yui tertidur & tak tau apa yg berlaku. Yg Yui tau Yui tido dalam hujan sbb Tsuki bagitau. x]
Lps dh syok tido, Yui gosok mata and guess what? Air laut dh pasang! ;O Memang terkejut ah! Mmg lucky Yui dpt jalan jauh-jauh sampai kat signboard amaran kat sana. [; Sekarang nak lalu kat tengah pun dah tak boleh. [; Btw, Yui bangun tido je masa tu tgk diorang sume tgh main layang-layang. Uwaaa~ bukan nak ajak ouh! T^T Angin kuat gila masa tu. Yui duduk kat batu dgn ummi je. Malas nak lyn layang-layang, rasa penat lagi lps bngun tido.
Kitorang berhenti main layang-layang sbb hujan turun. Kitorng duduk dulu dlm khemah and tunggu hujan reda. Lps brhenti hujan, diorang sume (kecuali ummi & Yui) pergi mandi laut. Heh, Yui tak nak laa join. Rambut kusut nanti. -,- Lps dh puas mandi, kitorang kemas2 sume barang and pergi makan seafood. MasyaAllah, besaw besaw seafood diorg! Terliur Yui tgk udang dia. x] Sambil mkn tuh, kitorng tgk cite 88 Minute yg tgh tayang kat kedai tuh. Cite tu dahlaa suspense, org lagi laa kuat makan. xD Hahah, tapi alhamdulillah sumenye cukup utk satu family Yui. Fav Yui masa tu sotong bakar, udang bakar & ikan bakar. Aaaa, alhamdulillah sgt Yui dpt rse nikmat mkn various fresh seafood. ♥
Lps habis mkn, kitorang berambus dari situ & balik rumah... Wait! Tsuki alergik! :O Omg, badan dia habis bintik2 & bibir bengkak. Tulaa, tak control mkn seafood, kan dah kena~ Kitorng terus pergi klinik & sampai rumah safe and sound tepat pukul 12.30 am. Huhh, what a day~ Memang penat, tp banyak seronok maa~ Kalau boleh, Yui nak mkn lagi seafood kat tempat tuh. ♥
xoxo
YuixWookie
Labels: Abah, family, holiday, tsuki, Ummi
Idiotism
Ugh ~ ! I just had a big fight with Tsuki. =,= She started the fight with Arisha first and involved me. It's started with lepas Tsuki dah mengamuk dengan Arisha, dia terhempas almari baju sampai habis baju jatuh. Then, she asking for my help. I helped her with sincere but a few seconds after that, she went out with Ummi Abah and Arisha and leaves me alone with her clothes. Okay, she's just over reaction and make me sick! She such an annoying lil alien sister. =,= Yui apa lagi, my face turned red hold my anger and almost crying. Well duh, I'm alone in house with Adam and I have to done with the clothes. Since nobody was home, my tears wet my cheek. I tried to stop but I can't till Ryeowook was by my side. :') I opened the television and coincidently it was Super Junior M's Blue Tomorrow. Omg, the song really helps me out! =) When the words "Wo Ai Ni" came out from Wookie's mouth, I was like in a cozy sanctuary. And also, when I saw Hangeng's tears on that MV, it was much much better. Yeah, obviously KPOP is a part of my life. <3
Since that time, I have learnt some lessons from Ryeowook SuJu M;
Wookie's wifey have to be patient.
Wookie's wifey must think positive.
Wookie's wifey has to not show the anger.
Wookie's wifey is a good girl.
Wookie's wifey must not make Joongie Mama and Papa Yunho sad.
Wookie's wifey will pinky promise Ryeowook to be a good wifey.
FULLSTOP.
An advise from alien's lover to an alien;
Tsuki, you better beware 'cause the cute alien Kevin wants a good wifey too. :p
SARANGHAE YO. :P JAGA DIRI TU BAIK2, THN DPN NAK MASUK ASRAMA.
-Nur Aifa a.k.a Kira Yui.
Labels: Abah, family, Kevin, ryeowook, super junior, tsuki, U-Kiss, Ummi
